GavinRillon

expensivehoooker:

As I am typing this, I am sitting on this wooden chair in the living room of my cousins Kim & Kathleen’s new apartment, which I may add is pretty fucken’ freezing, I am actually wearing sweat pants to go to sleep at night. But I was warned about the temperature since they do live in Hemet & I can literally see the mountains outside the window. I am coming home to San Diego tomorrow night & to be completely honest, I kinda miss my home. I miss sleeping comfortably on my own bed & just sleeping in which I haven’t been doing for the past four days. I have been waking up every day so fucken’ early & then staying up ‘til 5 or 6 in the morning partying, clubbing, making porno’s, recording videos, eating, throwing up, just alla this crazy bullshit. It’s fun but it’s so damn tiring. 

Anyways, this past Friday night I spent it at Rage with my Hookers in order to celebrate Gameboi LA’s 9th Year Anniversary. It was refreshing to be back in WeHo, especially in the month of January. I still feel that this first month of 2012 literally makes or breaks the rest of the year for me. So far, it has been fucken’ amazing. Two of my aunts gave birth to babygirls this month, my momma Queen Beyonce gave birth to a babygirl as well, my friend got married, I had money, I spent lots of time with my family, my friends who matter at least or make an effort to see or talk to me, & of course my cousins who just love so damn much.

My mind is a complete mess right now & I know that my thoughts will become more organized when I get back to San Diego. But Los Angeles has been amazing to me. I just love it there so much. I hate the fucken’ traffic & all the bitches who walk around like they’re so rich & shit. But then again, here I am walking around in a leotard & heels looking like an actual hooker. Who knows what people say or think about me. Lol. I get soooo much love from the gay scene. People always coming up to me asking for pictures & kisses & hugs. I feel so special, I feel important, I feel like I actually matter. My beauty is considered amazing to these gay people. When in SD, I’m considered to be “too much” or “over the top”. I’m kinda worthless in SD which is aight cause there’s no potential out here. Everything’s in LA & I feel like I’m strong enough to handle that LA world. After all, it is the entertainment capitol of the world & I just belong there.

Anyways, so I met this guy (who’s name will not mentioned ‘cause I know nosy ass people will try & search & add him) who came up to me, gave me a rose, & said that I was the most beautiful girl in the entire club Rage. & I said that he was just saying that because he probably had to say that. After all, he is a go-go dancer. & then he told me that he didn’t hafta say that to anyone & that he really meant it & then he kissed me on the cheek. & Then I started to get all fucken’ shy & shit & when I’m shy I tend to gag & it was so embarrassing. Lol. But then I told him that he’s wasting his time because I’m a “pretty girl with a pretty penis” & he started laughing & was like “I know.” & I started trippin’ out & then he kissed me on the cheek again & asked to take a picture. I know I don’t know him at all. But when I am at gay clubs, I always see a bunch of gay twinks running around everywhere. & they’re all… fucken’ kids. Lol. I mean, I’m only 19 but they’re just so horny & immature & it’s just not my thing. I’m not there to look for a hook up. But at the same time, how can this guy not catch anyone’s eye? This is what you call a man & I was so like in… ugh… I don’t even know. He was so beautiful that it made me so sad. Like he was way too good-looking for me. I felt so manly & fat & ugly & sweaty next to him ;( But it’s whatever. I’ll probably never see him again anyways. But yeah, I’ll blog more about it later. I needa start packing. Goodnight everyone! 

Look at chyu with that hunk of man by yo side. Oh and I totes feel you about gettin’ the hell out of San Deezy. It’s home but I’m over itttt!